Not actually grumpy

Hello there! I hope the new year is finding you well. It's finding me very well tbh. The general vibe, as far as I can tell from tumblr, is fuck last year this year rules? Which is something I can get behind. I'm glad I've documented the past few years on this blog, because I can see my own progression and remember that I've come a long way. I'm feeling very positive. I'm doing cheesy *positivity* things without shame, because they make me feel better. #Survival is so much more important than nonchalance and being cool. That is the theme this year. Shake off the shackles of irony and sarcasm. Stop pretending you don't care about yourself and what happens to you. Tell yourself you can do things. It makes you realise you weren't being realistic, you were actually holding yourself back.

Things I have done this year already:

1. Revisited my nano 2012 story and begun editing it.
2. Worked on the story of my nano 2013 story.
3. Started a story for a competition.
4. Almost sold out of Moss Piglet #1, and sold it at the zine fair yesterday.
5. Kind of successfully pushed work out of my mind while I'm not there (a work in progress)
6. Bought a new cymbal that I am in love with.
7. Hung out with nice people more. (being less socially anxious)(a work in progress)
8. Made some jewelry.
9. Played some gigs. (Bar Open + Boney)

So yeah. Going well.


How are you?

I'm a cat

We had a belated staff Xmas party last weekend. I was pretty happy with my outfit but there was no one home to help me take photos so these are all that are left. You can't really see but I wore shimmering white eyeshadow and teal mascara, made me feel like an ice queen. I was having a lot of anxiety about the party and didn't really want to go, but it ended up pretty fun.

I have wanted to look a lot like these two lately:

Just because, I don't know. They're badass and look like they hate everyone. I'm having a lot of trouble with dealing with criticism recently. Some people have thick skins and are able to deal with whatever happens in a logical way, but I'm not one of those people. I'm talking about work, mainly. It seems like an instinctual reaction to get really upset if someone is shouting at me. Even if I think the reason isn't valid and they're just being a dick or whatever, I find it hard not to feel upset. You know?

A note to bosses, managers, chefs, or anyone who has any kind of authority over anyone else in a workplace environment: It isn't good for your business to make your employees feel like shit. If they ask questions, you should answer them. The worst bosses I've had are the ones who make you feel like an idiot for asking a question. Really, questions are good things, because it means the person is double checking what they're doing. If you make someone feel like they can't ask questions, it will end up with them making more mistakes, because if they're unsure about something they'll just guess. I mean really, even if you think the answer is obvious, why not just answer it anyway? It wastes a lot more time if you shout at the person instead of a simple yes/no or whatever.

Like I just think some people have massive insecurities, and that's why they love having jobs where they can order people around and power trip over them.

*cough* no one in particular.*cough* chefs *cough*

/end rant